Everytime I hear the Armand van Helden remix of Spin Spin Sugar, I think of the girl I took to prom... Kerry Lee. She was the daughter of international missionaries. She was home schooled so i thought she would probably never have a prom. I didn't take her out of pity. I really wanted her to go with me. I don't know what came over me, but after the prom, I was informed our age difference was even further than I thought. I felt lied to and was pissed so I stopped taking her calls. Now I feel like a heartless bastard, it wasn't worth losing a friendship over. I've tried to contact her since then but to no avail. I know she's been overseas since the last time we talked, that was 4 years ago. I don't know if her parents still stay in the same place when they are in the states, and I'm not sure what the number is anymore. Kerry if you're out there, I'm sorry and I miss you.

I just finished reading David Gelernter's "The Second Coming - A Manifesto"... I think the first thing i noticed (lazy mode) when reading this was: as i was reading i saw that there was a next page button and I thought to myself, "how long is this thing?" not sure if i would be able to read it all before i was kicked off the computer. Then the next point i read pointed out that the good thing about books is you get a physical sense of the size and depth of the subject at hand. You know how thick it is and where you stand in the scheme of things. I was shocked because the web page had inadvertantly pointed out one of the MANY faults of the way we handle and present information these days. My friend Dan TheyBlinked loaned me the book, "The Hacker Ethic" by Pekka Himanen which at times synominizes the terms hacker and passionate specialist. The book welcomes people of all vocations and walks of life, technological or not, to claim the word for thier own. Gelernter's 53rd point in the manifesto I think should be highly relevant to the church:
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53. Your car, your school, your company and yourself are all one-track vehicles moving forward through time, and they will each leave a stream-shaped cyberbody (like an aircraft's contrail) behind them as they go. These vapor-trails of crystallized experience will represent our first concrete answer to a hard question: what is a company, a university, any sort of ongoing organization or institution, if its staff and customers and owners can all change, its buildings be bulldozed, its site relocated — what's left? What is it? The answer: a lifestream in cyberspace.

What an elequoent way of pointing out a concept that too often goes unrealized in the outer confines of humanity. I think this statment clearly pushes Gelernter into a scope of hackers beyond that of technology or even design.

ok... i'm finally in denial of relevance, and broke down to spew my thoughts into a cyberspace that may not reply or react. so here i sit, virtually writing to myself, wondering if i am presumptious (spell?) to publish my mind. i have no personal agenda, but sometimes selfish motives. It will probably seem like multiple people are publishing to this blog... probably the only thing that will stay consistant is my 2 distinct writing styles, proper and lazy. The difference is in lazy mode my style becomes inconsistant. but i use this thing a lot "..." I am sparatic, dark humored, sometimes crass and frank, stubborn, and will probably make statements that are emotionally driven, which means they may be incorrect or unfounded. Usually my statements are founded, i just hate citing my sources, i hope this isn't too annoying. I hope to misuse gargantuan words as much as possible, but i will be taking poetic license to create my own words constantly. I'd say welcome, but really i'm just inviting my self in to this platform aren't I?