how is it that someone can go out looking for companionship but not love? No matter how hard you try, you can't make someone love you... it's too bad. A both beautiful and ugly thing about love.

Movies of the week: Pump up the Volume, Singles, Moulin Rouge, Leaving Las Vegas. It seems like such a pointless movie to some I would think. I tend to fall in love with hard headed people who like to make HUGELY bad life choices. These people tend to operate outside the bounds of typical social thought, these are my kind of people.

I have ambition... I am actively involved in pursuing my dreams... no job is too small... There's a difference between having no ambition and just being talentless!

Good god it's been a while since i posted. There's nothing interesting about my life... maybe my thoughts. I think I avoid posting because it would hurt my mysterious ways. I don't want to lose my mystery but it really doesn't seem that important until i fear losing it. I would tell anyone anything in person but i guess there's something in the delivery that i fear i could never duplicate in literary form. I think really I just desperately seek affection and until I get it regularly, I won't be having any real interesting stories to share or vent on this thing. I still feel presumptious just for having a blog. I guess what I'm trying to say is if I don't post much in the beginning, the people who know me will forget I have a blog and stop checking it. This way I will regain my privacy. Yeah, I'm pretty retarded. I just read the blog of my ex girlfriend... that was a mistake.